What made you stop being an addict?

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Why is (n-1)(n+1)=n^2-1?

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

Why did my ex-narcissist move so fast with his new supply marriage engagement moving in, etc.?

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

I did it in my administrator's office.

Read that again ☝️

What is the cost of implementing synchronized traffic lights in a mid-sized city?

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

When was the last time you had sex with someone much older than yourself?

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

At what point did you realize it was the right time to leave your job?

Just keep trying

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

How would you feel if your friend confided in you that she is cheating on her husband, knowing that he loves her deeply? What emotional and ethical considerations would you grapple with in response to her revelation?

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Why do people love to live alone in a house?

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

I've never read the book. What did Dorian Grey do that was so immoral and sinful?

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

How come Jesus died on Friday and rose on Sunday? That's not 3 days and three nights.

And I can also talk to them now.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

Why are you bare-nakedly displaying your anti-Trump bias while ignoring the liberals' destruction of the US? I am now blocking your e-mails because of your biased articles.

This was February 2019.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

What thing happened to you as a child that you haven’t let go of to this day?

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

What would you change in Rings of Power?

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

Can it be true that people know your name, not your story, they’ve heard what you’ve done, but not what you’ve been through, so take their opinions of you with a grain of salt?

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

What's the hardest part about marriage that no one ever talks about?

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.